Anti-Social

I am defeated
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But not completed
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I am not whole
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I'm not in control
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My life swirls beneath my hazel eyes
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Beneath my clever disguise
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The mask that I show to the Earth
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The one I put on after birth
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It hides my sorrows
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From today until tomorrow
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I don't know about after that
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It's hard to say how long it will be until it crumbles
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How long until my REAL personality tumbles over me?
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How long have I been hiding?
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How long until I let someone inside?
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Why can't I trust?
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Look inside the pie, instead of at the crust?
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I feel unwanted
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I feel abandoned
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Why did you leave me?
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Why did you decieve me?
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I trusted in you
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You bolted through
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My past shames you, as it shames me
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That's why you flee
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I'm only human
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I make mistakes
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It's awfully hard to forgive myself
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However, I forgave everyone else
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Guilt plagues my soul
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I am cut from the mold of anti-social