"No one Ever"

I think you should know
Why I try to be ever strong
Why I never want to show
All I've concealed so long
.
I've had a crazy, crazy life
No one ever came around
To soothe the wounds and strife
So I locked it up without a sound
.
I don't ever want to be
The vulnerable little girl, you see
No one ever held me
Alone is the only way I know to be
.
I always envisioned
Warm arms embracing me
I had to make decisions
Because no one ever saved me

.
No one ever came around to hold me
As I cried
Every promise was broken
They lied

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I almost don't know how to accept
Comfort and affection
No one ever came to hold me
I've ever only felt rejection

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My mother never came to want me
My daddy never came to love me
My prince never came to save me
And I've never come to love me

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But I'm the only one I can rely on
I've had no shoulder to cry on
So many 'dark nights of the soul'
But I wouldn't let it take its permanent toll

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They tell me
What doesn't kill you makes you stronger
I tell myself I didn't have anyone then
I don't need anyone any longer

.
But I know that's not true
When I give comfort to many
I wish I could be soothed too
.. bestowing compassion is my only comfort

7-23-03