~@ I have 8 days to finish this story! Luckily this is the last chapter I have to worry about! Chapters 24 and 25 have long since been written and merely need to be typed... unfortunately THIS chapter (23) seemed to have gotten lost in the replotting of the storyline. Yes when I decided that Whyatt should go to jail I had to replot and somehow forgot that there is supposed to be a chapter 23. Anyway I hope this comes out ok. I am thinking about posting the prequil to 72 hours after the sequel. What do you think? I don't wanna let go of these characters! I love them too much! Ok anyway on with the story! @~


Jack and I....well he has rebuilt the wall between us. I know that I've fallen for him. I've fallen hard. I wish I knew how he really felt...

I know he say that he loves me, but he always seems so distant. It's almost as if he wishes I wasn't around.

He has been sleeping more. Which is good.

Luke and Laurence are leaving in three days, and I'm leaving in two weeks. I don't want to but I know I have to, and maybe, just maybe it will make Jack want to try harder to leave too.

All Jack seems to do lately is read that stupid book of his. You would have thought he'd have finished it by now, considering the amount of time he spend reading it everyday. But nope he turns one page every hour it seems. I don't even know what book it is. It has a blank black cover it looks like the book jacket was taken off of it.

I don't want to leave here. I don't want to go back to school and everyday life. I don't want to be without him. I can't pretend that I don't love him. I can't pretend that I'm not gay. I don't even know how to 'come out' to people.... here there was no pressure everthing just happened naturally. Out in the world not everyone is so excepting.


I yawned as I sat up in my bed. It was pretty early still, 4:57 am, and for once, Jack was sleeping. I don't know what caused me to wake up at such an ungodly hour but oh well. It was worth it to see Jack sleeping peacefully for once. he had his book open on his chest so I picked it up and decided to see what it was about before I put it on the table.

I blinked and turned on the light to make sure I wasn't seeing things. I flipped through the book utterly confused. The pages were blank. All of them.

Jack rubbed his eyes and sat up in his bed. "What are you doing?"

I closed the book and placed it on the nightstand. "I'm sorry I didn't mean to wake you Jack."

"No, it's alright." He sighed running his fingers through his messy reddish hair. "So, you saw my journal, huh?"

I blinked a bit. "So that's what it is?"

"Yeah, not that you could read it... it's written in invisible ink. Not because I don't want others to read it, but because I don't want to be able to go back and read it. Not yet anyway." He explained.

"It always seems like you're reading it." I mummbled.

"That's because I'm thinking, I just like to stare at the pages. I only write in it at night so no one ever sees me doing it. Come here, lie with me." He said patting his matress and pulling back the sheets.

I turned off the light and complied, snuggling next to him. He wrapped his arm around me. We lied there in silence for a good five minutes or so.

"Jack? Do why have you been so distant lately? It's almost like you didn't want anything to do with me." I asked finally.

"Hmm? I don't know... I just, I guess its because... I don't want to end up hurting you Chase. Every one I've been close to has ended up miserable and depressed. Or worse. I don't want you to end up like that. I couldn't bare to see you in pain Chase." He said sadly as he stroked my brow. "I love you so much Chase."

"You could only cause me pain by not being with me Jack." I smiled before I seized his lips in a tender kiss.

That night we fell back asleep in each others arms.

~@ Wow this is super short but thats only because it's sort of a filler chapter lol the story must have 25 chapters! How could I have forgotten chapter 23?! XD ACK!

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