~Well, here's chapter 10. I never thought I would finish this chap, even though it's relatively short. It's from Damian's POV, and he's kind of having a pity party. Anyway, enjoy and review! Love and peace! ~

~Angel of Havok~

Chapter 10-Obsolescence
Damian's POV
As I walked briskly away from Jades house, I began to feel the first signs that nothing would ever be right again. I couldn't control this flood of emotion that was rushing through me, washing away everything it touched. Why had this happened? Why did this have to change? I didn't feel like myself anymore, not at all. What I was feeling now, it was all new to me. There was no way I could begin to describe what this feeling was, but all I knew was that I wasn't happy, perhaps for the first time in my existence. But, even as this thought crossed my mind, it opened up a door of others that had been shut away deep within me. How long had I existed? Was this really the first time I was unhappy? I was sure that I had been around a long time, but how long?
I walked on for what seemed like hours, no real destination in mind. Part of me just desired to walk off the earth, to disappear. An unfathomable loneliness had settled upon my soul like a fog in the evening, obscuring everything in a grayish white mist.
"Where are you?" I whined miserably to the wind, knowing nobody would answer. Many times I had asked this question to the silence of the cold night, never to get a reply. In fact, I had been asking this so long that I no longer knew who the question was intended for. It seemed that so much had been forgotten in these many years, so much of myself lost to time. Sometimes it felt as if each day, another piece of me was chipped away, leaving only an empty shell of a being. I was an incomplete consciousness, a dysfunctional machine obsolescing a little more every day into complete failure.
A cold wind blew in from the north, chilling my tearstained cheeks. I looked up from the ground slowly, surveying my surroundings. I didn't know where I was, but that didn't bother me. Seeing that I was by the shore of a large lake, I approached the water and stared into it absently. The reflection I saw was so unfamiliar to me, even though I knew it was my own. For so long I had forced a false truth on myself, a forged image of who I was. I had pretended to be strong and indifferent, but in reality I was a coward.
Gazing down at my reflection, I knew that this was who I really was. I looked like an orphan of the night, cadaverously white face stained crimson with the blood of my own tears. My tousled shoulder-length hair clung lightly to my neck and cheeks, framing my childish face. The only true indication of my age was the expression in my eyes, so sad and empty, devoid of all childlike innocence.
I reached down and gingerly touched the waters surface, only to watch my image dissolve into ripples. Maybe, I wondered, am I so like my reflection? When someone comes too close, reaches out to touch me, do I too disappear? It was something I had wondered about for a long time, but now it seemed truer than ever. Whatever I touched was lost to me forever, and those who reached out for me only drove me further away.
Pulling my knees to my chest in a sort of desperation, an involuntary shiver escaped my body. I knew that I was being foolish, allowing myself to sit around wallowing in my own self pity. It would do me no good in the end, but I was tired of being logical. I needed this, whether I would ever admit it fully or not.
Jade had all but rejected me, treating me like a foolish little boy in need of a punishment. I still almost couldn't believe it. Not that long ago, he did everything I asked him to without question. He feared me just like he was supposed to, but ever since he had that damnable slave Davey, he decided he no longer needed to listen to me.
"This is all Davey's fault." I said to myself, anger boiling up within me. Jade had gotten him to replace me, to be a tame and obedient replica of myself which he could control. He was perfect in Jades eyes, a little angel who could do no wrong. Jade loved him like he could never love me. Hot tears streamed down my already tearstained face, obscuring my vision. I was now the imperfect one, the one who no one wanted. This Davey, he had taken everything from me; my slave, my purpose, my reason, and even my looks! It was sickening how much he looked like me, with his perfect raven hair and his deep brown eyes. I was but an immortal child, with no way to ever grow up and be beautiful as Davey was. Jade would never gaze upon me as one he loved. Unless, of course, he had no one else. If Davey was gone, then he would have no choice but to love me. I would have to take on the task of eliminating Davey, it was for Jades own good. Even if he was angry about it initially, he would come to realize sooner or later that I had done him a service and return to my side.
Jade was mine, he belonged to me. there was no way I was going to let him go so easily. Over the years I had lost everything, my memory, my purpose, most of my emotions. I was not about to lose the last thing that meant anything to me.
"I hope you're ready to say goodbye, Davey, because I'm coming to end your life for good."

~Well, that's all she wrote for now. TTFN! Ta ta for now!~

~Angel of Havok~