If I don't care...

Questions are running in my mind,
I cannot sleep, I cannot stop.
If I don't care,
Why does my heart beat so fast?

My mind keeps spinning,
Thoughts lost in deep mist.
If I do hate you,
Why can't I say this aloud?

I just do not understand,
Can't stop seeking the answer.
If I don't feel for you,
Why does my heart tell me the opposite?

You've turned my world upside down,
I never thought I coul feel this way.
If I didn't care,
Why would it hurt so much?

I'm falling, falling into shadows,
Please help me reach the light.
If I mustn't love you,
Why does it feel so right?