A/N:  This is just something that popped into my head after a few events that took place tonight.  Enjoy.  The little ~*~'s symbolize the song and separates it from the actual story being dictated here.  I own everything but the song itself.  Thank-you.

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Please come now I think I'm falling
I'm holding to all I think is safe
It seems I found the road to nowhere
And I'm trying to escape…
 
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Ice blue eyes looked up in shock.  Plastered across the piece of white, lined paper stood the words that she had dreaded to see since she had found out about the two: 'We need to break up.'
 
Clenching the paper to her chest, a few sobs of denial escaped her sweet voice; one tear falling from her left eye, and two from her right as she stared down at her jeans in disbelief.
 
This wasn't happening.  Not after three wonderful months.  Jeremiah had always been so loyal and true to her.  He had promised her the sun and the moon; and she in return had given him her heart; something that was fragile, and had been broken by many other guys prior to himself.
 
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I yelled back when I heard thunder
But I'm down to one last breath
And with it let me say
Let me say…
 
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Lexi had known that Annette had taken a liking to her love; ever since the day they had met in the college parking lot.  She had seen the fake smile upon the other woman's fact; and had noticed her flirting endlessly with the man that she had wished to spend the rest of her life with.
 
It broke her up inside to see her own Jeremiah not even giving a passing glance as he allowed himself to submit to such horrid events; and allow Annette to snake an arm around his waist; and casually brush up against his body when she was supposedly making a mad rush to her dorm room.
 
They had been best friends; but that was soon cut short when she had discovered something.  A secret that would change their friendship, and all that they had been through forever.
 
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Hold me now
I'm six feet from the edge and I'm thinking
That maybe six feet
Ain't so far down…
 
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Lexi gazed out upon the sea that lay before her.  She had always come to this same spot whenever she needed to get away from the world.  To collect any needed thoughts, and to dream of what may come.
 
The gentle and spirited dreamer that once held her captive was now gone; replaced with a mere shadow of a woman.  A soul without a body; and a mere shell of what used to be.
 
She sighed, sniffing as a few more tears ran down her sweet face.  She had known this would come; but never had she expected it to happen like this.  She had never thought it would be her only love; and the one in which she had once called her best friend.
 
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I'm looking down now that it's over
Reflecting on all of my mistakes
I thought I found the road to somewhere
Somewhere in His grace…
 
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Lexi continued to stare; soon planting herself upon the fresh, spring grass.  Holding on to the letter; her mind drifted to back then.  Back when she was happy.  Back when her love was indeed her own.
 
Jeremiah had promised to propose on their third anniversary- and now it had all come out to this.  He had left her; for another woman.  And his promise of asking her to be his wife- now a memory.
 
She had prayed.  Called out to God, and to help her get through this.  She whispered a silent prayer to the skies as she begged and pleaded for the sea to meet the skies, and bring her angel back to her once again.  To make him realize the truth, and that the only real love, was with her.  That Annette only wanted one thing from Jeremiah.
 
Bowing her head one last time, she took in a deep breath- speaking softly to herself to the skies- her final ounce of strength.  That one last hope that still clung to her.  All riding on a few clouds, and a vast ocean of wishes and what were once beautiful dreams.
 
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I cried out heaven save me
But I'm down to one last breath
And with it let me say
Let me say…
 
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She prayed for her love; her life; and her spirit and every reason for living to be returned to her as she had to question why.  Why was this all happening?  Why did it have to be them?  What had she done to deserve all of this?  But most of all- how was she to go on without the other half of her soul?
 
She had witnessed heartbreak and betrayal back during her high school days.  She had thought that once she walked down that aisle and reached for her diploma- that it would all cease; and her life would finally start falling into place- knowing where she would go with an open mind and open arms.   But little did she truly know, that was only a myth.  A legend to get your hopes up; and then knock them right back down.
 
A punishment for some unknowing sin committed; and an eternity forever bound to walk the face of the Earth.  The roads and pathways becoming your bride; as you walk further and further into self-denial.  Never knowing the feeling of eternal and true love; and drowning in this icy lake of pain.
 
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Hold me now
I'm six feet from the edge and I'm thinking
That maybe six feet
Ain't so far down…
 
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Lexi could not take it.  She needed to relieve herself.  
 
'My pain for the pain of others,' she stated in her thoughts; to which had been her motto ever since she had first discovered the beauty of self-infliction.  
 
The rush of adrenaline one got when the cool, silver blade hit your warm flesh, as it slid ever so beautifully and delicately across the skin- eventually finding it's hidden crimson, ruby treasure beneath.  The one final stinging aftermath brought her peace as through grueling agony- Lexi had forgotten about everything.  About why she had indeed been crying; and if only for a split second; felt her rush with death.
 
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Sad eyes follow me
But I still believe there's something left for me
So please come stay with me
'Cause I still believe there's something left for you and me
For you and me 
For you and me…
 
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Lexi felt another thought strike her.  Maybe this wasn't real.  Maybe it was just a dream; and maybe she would wake up to find Jeremiah lying next to her; assuring her that it was all a silly dream, and that nothing would ever come of it.
 
But then reality struck; and it hit her hard.  She couldn't take the way things had become anymore; or how things were now going to be.
 
That did it.  She needed her blade.  
 
Reaching into her pocket, she smiled and retrieved her silver, double bladed hunting knife- setting it up and raising the silver object to the sky- causing it to sparkle like a metallic burst of light.  Light- just waiting to be put to use.
 
Everyone had told her not to.  She had made hundreds of promises to her friends and concerned family that she would stop.  But she craved this like an addiction.  She had a monster living inside of her that took her over when she was in this fragile state; and the monster intended to take advantage to this situation as well.
 
Rolling up the sleeves to her purple shirt, she sucked in a breath- running the blade slowly down the side of her left arm- gasping in a bit of pain as she soon though of Jeremiah.  The betrayal of her true love; and the one friend that had taken her dreams and her heart- and stomped on them before her eyes.
 
Suddenly, as if a voice had thrown her into a mystical trance- Lexi removed the knife from her arm- blood seeping out as she shed one final tear.  Raising her gaze to the sky; she spoke one final time:
 
"I am sorry, my love.  Please don't forget me."
 
With a grunt, she drove the silver and crimson blade into the vital part of her chest- gasping out loud as blue eyes widened.  Feeling the healing hands of death start to consume her; she slumped onto the grass- laying in her own pool of blood, as her once white shirt and blue jeans matched the shade of red as the blade held at this time; still lodged within her chest.
 
As she felt her pool of red overtake her- she smiled lightly to the ocean; knowing now that she was out of pain; and finally at peace.  After so long; Lexi had finally come home.
 
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Hold me now
I'm six feet from the edge and I'm thinking
Maybe six feet
Ain't so far down…
 
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~SN