What We Used to Be

This is my life.

So different that it used to be.

Things have changed,

I've changed,

I've grown.

I'm no longer what I used to be.

This was your life.

So many you loved.

So many you lost,

You lost yourself,

So many still love you,

You're no longer what you used to be.

This is my life.

So many I've loved.

So many I've lost,

I lost you,

I still love you,

I'm no longer what I used to be.

This was your life.

Your dreams.

Your ambition,

Your love,

Held in another's cherished arms,

You're no longer what you used to be.

This is my life.

Too shy to look you in the eyes.

Too intrigued to turn away,

My tears,

My broken heart,

I'm no longer what I used to be.

This was your life.

So many things accomplished.

So many things unfinished,

Life is hard,

God is cruel,

You're no longer what you used to be.

This is my life.

I never got to hold you.

I never got to show you,

Things have changed,

I've changed,

I'm no longer what I used to be.

This is where my habits of procrastination lead me to.

We're no longer where we used to be.

In memory of C.S.

Died: Sunday, September 21, 2003.