What To Live For
I cry with tears, the knife by my bed,
Fearing yet wishing to be dead,
Nothing left to live for and I cannot see,
Why on earth anyone would love me,
Longing for the blade yet not quite ready,
Whatever I do I can't keep the hand steady,
Cry out in pain alone in the dark,
Wishing the knife would pierce my heart.
Losing feel I don't know what to live for,
Why live unless there is something more,
Can't understand and don't contemplate,
Why this world has turned to hate,
Nothing to lose I have nothing to gain,
So why not end my life and the pain,
I want to die and afraid to live,
For this life has nothing to give.
When all was black and hope was dim,
I relished in my large pool of sin,
And in the bleak moments of my life,
You came and took away the knife,
You took away the pain and scars,
Now the love we share is ours,
And in the dark I saw the truth,
The meaning of life now had proof.
My tears fall freely in pain again,
Hurt seems to be the latest trend,
Nowhere to run I face the blade,
And desire to live seems to fade,
Hope was gone and only grief remained,
Because of that my life was stained,
I didn't think my life had another chance,
Now I have reason to dance.
Hope appeared with a lending hand,
And with your help I learned to stand,
And slowly but surely I turned away,
Deciding to die another day,
Life turned and finally it was good,
It wasn't perfect but I knew it would,
Knowing I could live another day,
As long as I was following your way.
When all was black and hope was dim,
I relished in my large pool of sin,
And in the bleak moments of my life,
You came and took away the knife,
You took away the pain and scars,
Now the love we share is ours,
And in the dark I saw the truth,
The meaning of life now had proof.