And so she stepped into the light and started to scream.

I should probably start at the beginning. I am a vampire. Before you start on the fact that I shouldn't exist, I wasn't very happy about it either. The guy just ran up to me, grabbed my neck, and bit me.

He said I was pretty; therefore I will be "blessed" with eternal life. Goodie. He taught me what I needed to know, how things are, and that it sucked being a vampire (yes, the pun IS intended.) Well, the last one I got from experience.

Being a vampire stinks. You can't see the sun, your family thinks you're dead, and you NEED blood.

I miss seeing the sun, the feel of it on my skin, how it was so warm. I remember when I was younger, how it was my favorite color, how happy I was to run around barefoot, and just laugh. I loved just laying there and soaking it up. Now I can't even stand bright lights.

I miss my family. It's no use thinking of them, I know this. Mother's gone, Father is mad with grief, and Sister. Sister is getting married in July. That's fine though, since he's a good man. He won't beat her, or do something bad to her. I made sure of that. Thank the gods that I found out before Mother and Father told her.

Now about the Blood Lust, I hate having it. Blood is disgusting; it's horrible having an all-liquid diet, its like drinking soup only through a person. You have no idea how hard it is to find a person willing to let me drink. I can go without blood for about a month, however if I go with out HUMAN blood for too long; I go insane, and start killing people. I found that out when I decided, since I'm a vampire, and because of that can only drink blood, that the blood would only be non-sentient animals.

I was wrong; I'm too young a vampire to do that. In the end, I destroyed a small farming community. It was. horrible, all the children, the men, the women. All dead, all because I thought I was stronger then I was. I can still see it when I close my eyes. It was my nightmare from childhood come true. It was. painful, when I finally was self aware enough to realize what I did.

Have you ever woken up covered in blood, surrounded by the bodies of children, and having a metallic tang in your mouth? Of course you haven't, you're a human. Let me tell you this: it was the single most terrifying thing I've ever experienced, and I never want to go through it again. That is why I'm going to eventually kill myself. Not now, of course, I'm going to make certain that the rest of my family is going to be all right.

I'm going to see how Sister's marriage holds out, make sure Father will be fine, and. and. I don't know. Well, whatever it is, after that I'll finally see the sun again.