I've decided to begin my story with the departure of a close friend. It had been almost a year since she moved, but thankfully she had managed trips down to visit all of us. It was great fun getting to see her again, but as much fun that we had, it still could not cover the dull ache that has always been there. It just doesn't go away.

It's hard to explain such a thing to people. That you don't care about anything else in your life; except pure and unconditional love. Everywhere that my friends and I went, there was that dull, nagging hope to meet "The One" there. As stupid as it may sound. but that's what is almost constantly on my mind.

Why is it so impossible for a completely wonderful and handsome guy come into my life and just sweep me off my feet? How can I not find someone to give me butterflies and a shiver down my spine, just by him looking at me, or at the touch of our hands? Someone to offer me a love so pure and simple that his smile could turn the worst day into something I could overcome because I'd know that he would always be there beside me to steady me when I fall, and carry me when I no longer can carry myself. A love so simple, that its complexity is unrivaled by anything known or unknown to mankind.

Just love, nothing else matters to me.

That's all I want. Only that. so why can't I find it?