My heart is filled with sorrows,
Deep turmoil and pain,
My soul tries to keep balanced,
On which it all is lain,

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I feel I'm not so terribly bright,
Although feelings I don't lack,
At least I have a heart and soul,
No matter that they're black,

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They scream for mercy good or bad,
And hurt they bring to me,
'Trust in your self' they say,
But the good in my self I cannot see,

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I ask for help but pity is given,
But this I cannot use,
Through my fingers it runs like sand,
And all of which I lose,

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So, avoid me if you must do,
But no monster am I,
Peace and hope is what I live for,
But it always seems to die,

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Good intentions is what I bring,
But they always end up bad,
I'm not worthy of a pure soul,
For once a pure soul I had,

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No trust in me can you have,
And blame I naught to you append,
But do not worry for I shall die,
When this life soon god will end.