Save Me . . .

These feelings inside break my heart
Rip. Slash. Crack. Shatter.
The dagger stabs into me
Gush. Blood. Pain. Tears.

This pain throbs in my throat
Choke. Gasp. Wheeze. Suffocate.
My mind is so numb
Stab. Nothing. Break. Nothing.

To feel again, what a dream
Pain. Fear. Anger. Panic.
To once again be normal
Never. Wish. Try. Fail.

To be loved again
Happy. Cherished. Warm. Smile.
To be held in his arms
Euphoria. Love. Sunlight. Bliss.

To make the memory die, impossible
Try. Fail. Try. Fail.
Forever shall my life be the same
Painful. Bleak. Bloody. Sorrowful.

I need to save myself - the blade
Slice. Blood. Laugh. Relief.
I have to hide these feelings
Lies. Masks. Blades. Blood.

I am not of worth, how true
Bruised. Mocked. Outcast. Freak.
Don't try to save me, I'm not worth it
Leave. Run. Ignore. Hate.

Bleeding's the only way
Drip. Gush. Ooze. Drip.
I need nothing more, just pain
Slice. Ooze. Rip. Bleed.

Let me pop those pills
Pop. Swallow. Cry. Swallow.
I want to die
Bleed. Pop. Cut. Swallow.

These feelings inside break my heart
Rip. Slash. Crack. Shatter.
And this blood will save me
Slice. Blood. Laugh. Relief.