Between Me and Myself
I am not what I used to be
Able to befriend anyone
Able to converse with others
Being true to all and me.
But, this mask I wear
Imprisons my true self in a cage
Hidden in the shadows,
Through the shroud of cold sweat
Living one life while the other is on pause
Like a break in between a video game.
Sitting inside my head, keeping to myself
Aloof, bitter, hesitant…alone
Act like I don't care and be happy
When inside, I feel distant and unwanted
"Smile and nod," my conscience calls out
"And everyone will know you're fine—
Be polite and say pleasant words,
And maybe there'll still be a chance,
To fit in."
Rocking back and forth
Lonely, with no one to go to
In this imaginary world of mine
No one else knows but me
Of this feeling, I withhold inside.
Everyone is unaware.
I've masked myself well
Another job well done
Have earned myself no pity
Just breezed through another dispirited day
The ugliness within me left untouched
Life as a living tall tale…