AN: ok, since I don't want to ruin the mood at the end of the story, I am
going to say this now. Yes, this really was a dream of mine. No, it
didn't end the way I wrote it did *sob*. Please, review if you want. I
have many more dreams (not just romantic ones, but I also have a few more
of those *wink*) if you want me to do a sequel. The song in the story is
"Here With You" by Dido. And finally, yes, my favorite Beethoven song *is*
Moonlight Sonata. My one wish in life..is to see who my mystery guy is.
*sigh*. . . .
LONELY
~ I take another sip of my bubbly ginger ale and cock my ear to the hole in
the aluminum can. The soft sizzling noises of the carbonated bubbles
popping and fizzing ease me into a relaxed state. I set it down on two sheets of computer paper that I had scribbled a story plot on. It had hit me in the middle of writing one of my newer stories. The other sheet had my Christmas list that I planned to get for other people. I smiled at my
chicken scratch. My eyes snap back on to the computer screen as my favorite Beethoven song comes on: Moonlight Sonata or, Sonata de la Lune,
was what it originally was when I downloaded it.
~
I hum to it as my fingers fly across the keyboard, tapping letters at a time to form a decent story. The painstaking concentration is broken by a
word escaping me. I sit for a few minutes trying to figure it out. It stayed out of my reach, taunting me. I grew frustrated and just left the word out, using simpler words to describe the scene I was spinning. Time grew, and my tale began to grow. I reached a stopping point and glanced at the clock on my computer screen. Five in the a.m. and my weariness caught up with me. I shut the computer off and stood in the middle of the room as
the darkness swallowed me, enveloping me in its silence.
~
I didn't hear you leave
I wonder how am I still here?
And I don't want to know the things
That might change my memory
Oh I am what I am
I do what I want
But I can't hide
And I won't go
I won't sleep
I can't breathe
~
I peeled my pants off and climbed in to bed, wrapping the covers tight
around me. It was around this time I would reflect on my life. In the dark, where no one can see my tears or interrupt my thoughts. The darkness helps me envision the way my life would be, had I had any control over it.
A dark, tall figure approaches me on a sunny day. Much like the one yesterday was. I succumb to my dreams and let my imagination take me to a
world I create as I leave this one behind.
~ I can not see his face. That is the first thing I realize. The next, is
the growing dark clouds covering the sun as he nears me. The closer he
comes, the darker the light grows. He holds out his hand to me, or at least, that's what I assume. It could have been an alien, with my luck. I set my small hand in his larger one. He pulls me up and my white sundress
flaps around my knees. I glance behind me, and find that I had been
leaning against a willow tree. I watch in a transfixed gaze as the
branches sweep back and forth, as if they were dancing to a sweet melancholy tune that only they could hear. I was tempted to join in, when I felt my mysterious figure pull on my hand. I glance back at him, a few strands of long hair wrapping around my face and tangling in my eyelashes. He begins to lead me somewhere, somewhere off the hill we stood on. I, the
curious cat I am, follow him obediently.
~
Until you're resting here with me
And I won't leave
And I can't hide
I can not be
Until you're resting here with me
~
The sunny day is now an overcast day, the colors of the scenery standing out brightly against the dark sky. Except for a few scattered trees, there is no other living thing here. An ocean suddenly grows and waves crashes
against rocks. The surf chases up to our feet, and falls back, only to come rushing back up and receding again. A timeless race that never ends.
The caws of birds ring out, sending shivers up my spine, yet I see no
birds. None in the sky, none in any of the trees near-by. He sits and
pulls me on to his lap. We face the blue sea, and I lean against him.
~ Even though this is not real, I will make most of it while it lasts. After
all, a girl can dream, can't she?
~
I don't want to call my friends
They might wake me from this dream
And I can't leave this place
~
I feel him whispering words, sweet words I imagine, against my ear. His chest rumbling beneath my back, a lulling sound, and he pulls me back. I slip off his lap, and lay against the soft, white sand that appeared from, apparently, nowhere. He leans above me, his face obscured from me, but his
body made perfectly for a god. Rippling muscles flow under his loose, white button down shirt as he places a sweet kiss on my forehead. His soft hair tickles against my cheek as he kisses my lips. Deep and penetrating, I feel his mind reaching out to mine as our fingers intertwine with each
other. He goes lower.
~
Oh I am what I am
I'll do what I want
But I can't hide
And I won't go
I won't sleep
And I can't breathe
Until you're resting here with me
~
His kisses taste like ginger ale, sweet and tingling in sensation. His warm hands glide across my body in a searching wonder. He slips my dress of and I watch with lazy eyes as it floats in the breeze and disappears in a neat little shimmer of magic. I unbutton the buttons on his shirt one at a time; I pause between each one to place a kiss against his bronzed chest.
He shrugs the cloth of and it also flies away, only to disappear in a shimmer. The scent of the ocean washes over my senses and imbeds its smell in to my brain. I remember that smell as I watch my mystery guy pull the
last piece of clothing off. He stands in front of me, watching me as I watch him. I hold my arms out to him, wanting to feel him against me, and
even, in me. He kisses me again and we begin. The ocean continues its primal beat against the sand, a steady rhythm setting our own beat in time
with it.
~
And I won't leave
And I can't hide
I can not be
Until resting here
And I won't go
And I won't sleep
And I can't breathe
Until you're resting here with me
~
He kisses me as I'm send soaring high, higher and finally at the highest reach I stay. Time seems to have stopped for me for only a second and I'm falling again. Fear grabs and tears at me with its claws before I'm back. I'm safe and sound against the warm body of my mystery guy. He wraps his arms around me and that ocean smell comes back; it's salty but fresh, cold and relaxing. I breathe deeply and curl into his heat. He kisses my head
and strokes his hand on my hair, brushing it and petting my head at the same time. It's a soothing effect on me. The darkness grows, the ocean's sounds seem to dim. Even the colors of the trees and grass grow dull and
flicker into a black and white background. The white doesn't last and
becomes a grey, then a dark grey. The warmth from his arms seems to increase and then fade, becoming nothing but an ember lost among the other embers in a dying fire. His voice reaches me, deep and smooth before also falling away. I reach out a hand, and I see that my usually pale skin has
gone grey, greyer and then finally even that fades from my vision.
~
And I won't leave
And I can't hide
I can not be
Until you're resting here with me
Oh I am what I am
I'll do what I want
But I can't hide
And I won't go
I won't sleep
And I can't breathe
~
My eyes open to find the sun shinning brilliantly through my shades. Birds
chirp loudly outside, their songs filtering in through the glass of my windows. I sit up and look around. That dream had felt so real; I swear I can still feel his arms around me. I look down and feel my skin. My arms
are warmer than the rest of my body. I stand and take no notice as the
sand in my bed falls in little sprinkles on the black sheets.
~
Until you're resting here with me
And I won't leave
And I can't hide
I can not be
Until you're resting here
~
I pull on a different pair of pants than the ones I wore yesterday. Some may think I'm a slob, but I'm really just a procrastinator. I glance at my windows again and find a silhouette of a figure there, just standing. I rush to the windows and throw them open, only to find a tree standing in
the path of the sun's rays. I recoil back in to my room and look
cautiously around, my eyes pausing as they pass over the corners.
Something feels . . . different. I shrug as I see nothing out of the ordinary. I move to turn the computer on and the scent of something salty and fresh, cold and relaxing passes under my nose, filling my senses and exploding in my head. I whip around and find something shimmering in the
middle of my room. I make a move towards it.
~
And I won't go
And I won't sleep
And I can't breathe
Until you're resting here with me
~
I reach my hand out and watch in amazement as tingling sensations vibrate up my arm and rattle my brain. I feel the same warmth that emitted from my
mystery guy fill me from the inside. I can't help but smile. A voice, deep and smooth reaches my ears but the words are too muffled to make out. The shimmers disappear, but the warmth stays. A sweet and tingling taste
fills my mouth and I feel my heart begin to beat again.
No more am I feeling empty or alone, because now I know.
~
And I won't leave
And I can't hide
I can not be
Until you're resting here with me
~
Now I know that I'm loved.
~END~
LONELY
~ I take another sip of my bubbly ginger ale and cock my ear to the hole in
the aluminum can. The soft sizzling noises of the carbonated bubbles
popping and fizzing ease me into a relaxed state. I set it down on two sheets of computer paper that I had scribbled a story plot on. It had hit me in the middle of writing one of my newer stories. The other sheet had my Christmas list that I planned to get for other people. I smiled at my
chicken scratch. My eyes snap back on to the computer screen as my favorite Beethoven song comes on: Moonlight Sonata or, Sonata de la Lune,
was what it originally was when I downloaded it.
~
I hum to it as my fingers fly across the keyboard, tapping letters at a time to form a decent story. The painstaking concentration is broken by a
word escaping me. I sit for a few minutes trying to figure it out. It stayed out of my reach, taunting me. I grew frustrated and just left the word out, using simpler words to describe the scene I was spinning. Time grew, and my tale began to grow. I reached a stopping point and glanced at the clock on my computer screen. Five in the a.m. and my weariness caught up with me. I shut the computer off and stood in the middle of the room as
the darkness swallowed me, enveloping me in its silence.
~
I didn't hear you leave
I wonder how am I still here?
And I don't want to know the things
That might change my memory
Oh I am what I am
I do what I want
But I can't hide
And I won't go
I won't sleep
I can't breathe
~
I peeled my pants off and climbed in to bed, wrapping the covers tight
around me. It was around this time I would reflect on my life. In the dark, where no one can see my tears or interrupt my thoughts. The darkness helps me envision the way my life would be, had I had any control over it.
A dark, tall figure approaches me on a sunny day. Much like the one yesterday was. I succumb to my dreams and let my imagination take me to a
world I create as I leave this one behind.
~ I can not see his face. That is the first thing I realize. The next, is
the growing dark clouds covering the sun as he nears me. The closer he
comes, the darker the light grows. He holds out his hand to me, or at least, that's what I assume. It could have been an alien, with my luck. I set my small hand in his larger one. He pulls me up and my white sundress
flaps around my knees. I glance behind me, and find that I had been
leaning against a willow tree. I watch in a transfixed gaze as the
branches sweep back and forth, as if they were dancing to a sweet melancholy tune that only they could hear. I was tempted to join in, when I felt my mysterious figure pull on my hand. I glance back at him, a few strands of long hair wrapping around my face and tangling in my eyelashes. He begins to lead me somewhere, somewhere off the hill we stood on. I, the
curious cat I am, follow him obediently.
~
Until you're resting here with me
And I won't leave
And I can't hide
I can not be
Until you're resting here with me
~
The sunny day is now an overcast day, the colors of the scenery standing out brightly against the dark sky. Except for a few scattered trees, there is no other living thing here. An ocean suddenly grows and waves crashes
against rocks. The surf chases up to our feet, and falls back, only to come rushing back up and receding again. A timeless race that never ends.
The caws of birds ring out, sending shivers up my spine, yet I see no
birds. None in the sky, none in any of the trees near-by. He sits and
pulls me on to his lap. We face the blue sea, and I lean against him.
~ Even though this is not real, I will make most of it while it lasts. After
all, a girl can dream, can't she?
~
I don't want to call my friends
They might wake me from this dream
And I can't leave this place
~
I feel him whispering words, sweet words I imagine, against my ear. His chest rumbling beneath my back, a lulling sound, and he pulls me back. I slip off his lap, and lay against the soft, white sand that appeared from, apparently, nowhere. He leans above me, his face obscured from me, but his
body made perfectly for a god. Rippling muscles flow under his loose, white button down shirt as he places a sweet kiss on my forehead. His soft hair tickles against my cheek as he kisses my lips. Deep and penetrating, I feel his mind reaching out to mine as our fingers intertwine with each
other. He goes lower.
~
Oh I am what I am
I'll do what I want
But I can't hide
And I won't go
I won't sleep
And I can't breathe
Until you're resting here with me
~
His kisses taste like ginger ale, sweet and tingling in sensation. His warm hands glide across my body in a searching wonder. He slips my dress of and I watch with lazy eyes as it floats in the breeze and disappears in a neat little shimmer of magic. I unbutton the buttons on his shirt one at a time; I pause between each one to place a kiss against his bronzed chest.
He shrugs the cloth of and it also flies away, only to disappear in a shimmer. The scent of the ocean washes over my senses and imbeds its smell in to my brain. I remember that smell as I watch my mystery guy pull the
last piece of clothing off. He stands in front of me, watching me as I watch him. I hold my arms out to him, wanting to feel him against me, and
even, in me. He kisses me again and we begin. The ocean continues its primal beat against the sand, a steady rhythm setting our own beat in time
with it.
~
And I won't leave
And I can't hide
I can not be
Until resting here
And I won't go
And I won't sleep
And I can't breathe
Until you're resting here with me
~
He kisses me as I'm send soaring high, higher and finally at the highest reach I stay. Time seems to have stopped for me for only a second and I'm falling again. Fear grabs and tears at me with its claws before I'm back. I'm safe and sound against the warm body of my mystery guy. He wraps his arms around me and that ocean smell comes back; it's salty but fresh, cold and relaxing. I breathe deeply and curl into his heat. He kisses my head
and strokes his hand on my hair, brushing it and petting my head at the same time. It's a soothing effect on me. The darkness grows, the ocean's sounds seem to dim. Even the colors of the trees and grass grow dull and
flicker into a black and white background. The white doesn't last and
becomes a grey, then a dark grey. The warmth from his arms seems to increase and then fade, becoming nothing but an ember lost among the other embers in a dying fire. His voice reaches me, deep and smooth before also falling away. I reach out a hand, and I see that my usually pale skin has
gone grey, greyer and then finally even that fades from my vision.
~
And I won't leave
And I can't hide
I can not be
Until you're resting here with me
Oh I am what I am
I'll do what I want
But I can't hide
And I won't go
I won't sleep
And I can't breathe
~
My eyes open to find the sun shinning brilliantly through my shades. Birds
chirp loudly outside, their songs filtering in through the glass of my windows. I sit up and look around. That dream had felt so real; I swear I can still feel his arms around me. I look down and feel my skin. My arms
are warmer than the rest of my body. I stand and take no notice as the
sand in my bed falls in little sprinkles on the black sheets.
~
Until you're resting here with me
And I won't leave
And I can't hide
I can not be
Until you're resting here
~
I pull on a different pair of pants than the ones I wore yesterday. Some may think I'm a slob, but I'm really just a procrastinator. I glance at my windows again and find a silhouette of a figure there, just standing. I rush to the windows and throw them open, only to find a tree standing in
the path of the sun's rays. I recoil back in to my room and look
cautiously around, my eyes pausing as they pass over the corners.
Something feels . . . different. I shrug as I see nothing out of the ordinary. I move to turn the computer on and the scent of something salty and fresh, cold and relaxing passes under my nose, filling my senses and exploding in my head. I whip around and find something shimmering in the
middle of my room. I make a move towards it.
~
And I won't go
And I won't sleep
And I can't breathe
Until you're resting here with me
~
I reach my hand out and watch in amazement as tingling sensations vibrate up my arm and rattle my brain. I feel the same warmth that emitted from my
mystery guy fill me from the inside. I can't help but smile. A voice, deep and smooth reaches my ears but the words are too muffled to make out. The shimmers disappear, but the warmth stays. A sweet and tingling taste
fills my mouth and I feel my heart begin to beat again.
No more am I feeling empty or alone, because now I know.
~
And I won't leave
And I can't hide
I can not be
Until you're resting here with me
~
Now I know that I'm loved.
~END~