Your Own Little Cruel
Out of control, does anyone see?
No, no one can see the other
Part of me.
Out of the cracks of despair I come,
Split in half, a hollow laugh erupts
From the throat I almost choke on the
Empty sound because no one found the
Other part of me, the part that's cruel,
Wants to fight, shies from the light and
Lies. It's all a tool to cover up the
Cruel side. Everyone has it. When a room, dim
Is lit, it creeps out of the
Shadows, consumes, confuses, bites at
The light, ready for the fight, the
Fight called life. It claws its way out,
This other self, this self called cruel.
But soon it's held back repressed again,
Pushed in with sin, but it wants out
Every time you shout that's it your
"cruel" slowly seeps out only to be
Covered again, buried with sin it screams
And shouts, desperate to come out, only so it
Can kill you again, your own little "cruel." When
You look in a mirror can you see what
Others can't see, your other self, the
Devil inside? People won't admit their devil
Inside. It is forced to hide yet again, when
Will it end? Will it hide inside to save your pride because you lied about
The rules that you tried to abide by, but that doesn't
Work, does it? The rules
Are broken, it's unfair, does that mean
That we have to lay down to bare our
Thoughts and the burdens we share, but
Nobody dares to bare their cruel,
Will you fight to find the kind, do you really
Want to? Although people hide it, they love
Their own little "cruel," it's their fuel
To get through life. Stab people in the
Back to make up for what you lack, have
To get your way so you can stay away
From the feeling inside, the feeling that you
Hide behind the cruel you love so much
That feeling that you love to touch inside
Yourself, to hide yourself, abide only by
Yourself. Don't look back at your little
Cruel only to add to your fuel. Can you
Hide your cruel? Nobody can, not all the time,
It will come out when you shout, show
Your cruel, it's a part of you,
Sometimes my cruel is shown. I bare it to the
Bone, unafraid of what people think because
Now, unrestrained, my cruel can see your
Cruel, hidden deep inside of you.
Then you say I'm a snot, stop. Look at yourself
For once. How can you choose to accuse me?
Don't you see yourself? Don't point fingers and
Sneer or jeer. Stop. How could you? Don't tell me
What I'm not. Just stop, step back, see what you
Lack, what's inside of you, your cruel.