Im sick of being afraid To say what I mean
But I wish you would have stayed
I cannot stand this scene
I cant feel my existence
I don't know if im here
I cant fight the resistance
But I wont ched a tear
Im going to tell the truth now
But be careful it might hurt
There is no holding back now.... So here it goes,

Yes, I still hate you
With all of my heart
Will you leave me alone now?
I told you my part.
You never knew the real me
You used to be my friend
But we can never have that back
Its one thing we cant mend.

Yes, im crying
Are you happy, now?
Sometimes I feel like dying
But please, don't fail me now
I don't want to scare you
That's why I never said
All the things I think about
While I lay awake in bed.

Yes, I want someone to talk too
But I don't want you to know
All the things I never told you
All the things I couldn't show
I dont want you to look at me
With sad, confused eyes
I don't want to hurt you
By revealing all my lies

Sometimes I love this so much
I don't want you to go
Now I don't want to make a fuss
Of all the things you cannot know
Most of all, I just want things to stay the same
I don't want any pity
I don't want you to feel ashamed

Yes, I feel furious at what you sold away
You took away my childhood
It will never be the same.
How could you take away so fast
The only thing I knew!
Now I can never have that back I hate you, I hate you!

Yes I need some freedom
To make choices of my own
How else can you test me
To see how much ive grown
But at the same time,
I don't want you to let go Its painful
to release myself Into a worl I don't yet know.

So see, I don't know what to do
Im living a double life
One filled with love for you
One filled with hatred and strife
I don't want those worlds to meet
I know the worser will subside
I don't know how to win this feat
For now, ill just glide.