There is a demon
Inside of me
At least I like to think that she
Is just inside of me
(She's not really me, right?)
But she is me
I know it
(No! It's not true!)
I can feel her acidic being
Flowing throughout
My icy veins
Still I pretend
That she is just a monster
(She is! She is!)
Living inside of me
I will never admit
At least not out loud
That the demon is really me
Because I can't control her
(Can you ever control a monster?)
Believe me, I've tried
I tried chains
But
(she)
I broke them
I tried pleas
But
(she)
I ignored them
I tried cages
But
(she)
I destroyed them
I finally gave up
Long, long ago
Now I watch
Passively
As
(she)
Hate destroys my life
And the lives of those I love
Will I ever tame
(her)
Myself?
(I doubt it)
Have I really given up on
(her)
Myself?
(Probably)
Or do I still
Live
Talk
Think
Breathe
Belong
In the state of
(Happiness)
Denial?
Maybe one day she and I
Will both learn to love
To be good
(Hah! Like that'll happen)
To become lovable
By the world who shunned us
To be accepted
To belong
But until then
I sit inertly
And watch the destruction
We bring
And weep
(laugh)
At the pandemonium
I have created
I am living in hell
(Well, that's where we belong)