What is

Perfect?

Why

Do I need it

Why don't I have it

Why isn't anything worth

More than five minutes of your time

I don't want to

Fight

I don't want to fail

I want you to think I'm

Perfect

Why does it hurt

To have you pat me on the head

To say its good

And turn away

If I'm alive

Your job is done

But what if I don't live

To remember

Why I tried

So hard for you

When your problems

Are not me

And never will be

Alone in my confusion

Wanting you to notice

I did it right

Right?

I don't want to listen

To everything I do wrong

Over and over

And nothing I do right

Is even remembered tomorrow

But I still try

Look my way

While I hide in the corner

Waiting for you to tell

How badly I did it

So I turn to anger

I hate you

But who I really hate is me

For failing you

For making you shake your head

And wonder where you went wrong

And why you try

But you don't

So I do

I just want to be

Nothing