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In my place, in my place

Were lines that I couldn't change

I was lost

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I should have been ready for it... I knew it was going to happen, I've known it all along. On some detached level of sanity, I've known it all along. But never... never did I think it would ever become reality... never did I think it would happen to me.

Never did I expect how much it would change me.

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And I was lost, I was lost

Crossed lines I shouldn't have crossed

I was lost

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Out of place, out of time, out of mind, I was lost, with nowhere to go. I would have done anything to get it all back, to return life to the way it was, and in my weakness I did things I never should have done. Went beyond the lines I'd set for myself.

I had always known it would happen someday, and yet, when it came, I was so unprepared for it all...

I had always known...

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Yeah, how long must you wait for it?

Yeah, how long must you pay for it?

Yeah, how long must you wait for it?

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In some ways, it was all a relief. In some ways, I was happy. I was glad it had finally happened, that we didn't have to worry any more, that that little lingering knowledge would never haunt us – would never haunt me – again. That an old soul, long past due, could finally stop waiting.

In some ways, it was all hell and torture come back to haunt me. In some ways, I was paying the fiercest price for all I had ever been stupid enough to hold dear. I couldn't stand the fact that it had happened already, that there wasn't more time, that there couldn't be more time. I was selfish and I didn't care what that old soul needed. What I needed was so much different...

In some ways...

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I was scared, I was scared

Tired and underprepared

But I wait for it

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I would never say it, never admit it to anyone. But it's true, and it will always be true. I was frightened. I was facing the unknown for the first time in how many years and I was doing it all alone. I knew it all along, I had always known, and still, I was unprepared. Still, I had no idea as to how I should go about handling this new experience, this new sensation.

I had known it would come. In that way, I was prepared, I suppose. I had been prepared in the ways that I knew it would come. It did not appear suddenly and it was no surprise. But in so many more ways, in so many ways that count, I was so surprised and I did not know what to do, and I did not know how to feel...

So surprised, so scared...

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If you go, if you go

Leave me down here on my own

Then I'll wait for you

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If you leave me, what will I do? What will I say? What will I feel? I never thought of those things before, and I never thought to ask you, and now, I wish with everything I have that I could just have one more chance, one more day, one more... I wish you were here and I wish I could ask you...

But you aren't here, are you? You aren't here, and I can't ask you. I've never had to handle that before, never. I've never had to handle a question that I don't know the answer to, that I need to know the answer to and I can't. That I need to be able to ask the answer to and I can't, and there's no one here to ask any more.

And I can't...

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Yeah, how long must you wait for it?

Yeah, how long must you pay for it?

Yeah, how long must you wait for it?

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It's been so long now, and I'm still waiting. I'm still sitting there and waiting and wishing and fooling myself, and believing that someday, someday it might be. Someday you might come back to me. Someday I might never have to struggle through this torture by myself, and someday, maybe someday, I won't have to bear this burden alone.

Maybe someday, you'll come back to me and this burden will never exist again, and you'll take away my pain and you'll answer my questions and you'll tell me you're here, and you're never leaving again.

Maybe someday...

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Please, please, please

Come back and sing to me

To me, me

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Please, won't you please come back to me? I don't want this weight on me any more, I don't want to have to struggle through this pain alone any more. I want you here with me; I want this pain to go away.

I have pain in my life, you know this, you understand this, and yet, you add to this. You, you understand me, and you hurt me. Please, make it all go away...

Come back to me...

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Come on and sing it out, now, now

Come on and sing it out, to me, me

Come back and sing it

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I can't stand this pain any longer. I can't add this pain to the loads I already bear, and I can't stand this pain any longer. I need you by my side, I need you to tell me it's all going to be okay, that you're here, and you're with me, and you're standing by me, and you can take my pain away.

I need you to come back to me, and I need you to speak to me. I need you to tell me it's all going to be okay, and that we've waited for this day for so long, and it's okay, because we're still waiting. This day hasn't come yet, and you're still here.

All of you...

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In my place, in my place

Were lines that I couldn't change

And I was lost, oh yeah, oh yeah

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I can't live this hell any longer...

I'm lying...

I'm crying...

I'm dying...