Highschool Hypocrisy

I've reached a point in life where I am more than ready to leave the highschool life behind. Either that, or ditch the popular life. It's all so completely ridiculous. There seems to be some set law that within the 'popular crowds' someone has to be mad at another person and their has to be someone stabbing someone else in the back. But we're all the best of friends. Yet we all have to choose sides when a fight erupts. And, if you refuse to get involved or choose sides, suddenly you're the only one stabbing people in the back. If you're fortunate enough to have gained a whole load of respect from everyone within the group, you won't get forced to choose sides.

Unfortunately, that throws into play another incredibly stressful and annoying role which is placed on you; the Middle Man. Everyone comes running to you for advice, and asking you to run messages between the 'not-talking' parties.

But that's not the only point to which the immaturity extends. If a fight between two people breaks out, within a couple of days there will be a huge division between the group of friends. In fact, people who really have absolutely nothing to do with the issue will be taking sides and talking about it like they were the ones in the fight from the beginning.

After the split comes the badmouthing, backstabbing, ego shattering, and the desperate attempt to win more people to your side. Everything gets blown out of proportion, gossip starts, and next thing you know, someone ends up completely destroyed by the lies.

It's the same thing all through highschool; and one of the things which makes me wish I had remained in the solitary confinement of the anti-social, instead of graduating into the world of the social butterfly.

As much as I hate to say it, being a nerd is much less complicated than being popular. When you're a nerd, all these problems popularity causes don't exist. You don't have to worry about pleasing anyone but yourself, and hey, it definitely gives you much more time to focus on your studies.

I never thought I would hear myself say this, but I cannot wait until highschool is over. I'm fed up with it all: the peer pressure, the fights, the everything that makes being popular the worst thing in the world.

But the worst part about it all, is realizing how many times I've fallen into that stupid stereotypical trap myself. It's inescapable when you're in that crowd. You can try to fight it, try not to fall into the trap, but you will. Even if it's not you who takes that step, someone will officially take the initiative to start 'your side', and the division will still occur. People just can't seem to mind their own business.

Sometimes I really wonder if it's worth all the crap. Unfortunately, I have to say, as much as I talk about returning to the seclusion of being a nerd, I wouldn't give up what I've got. Why? Because as much as it all pisses me off, I care too much about every single one of my friends to just abandon them. I would do almost anything for them.

I hate the inescapable hypocrisy of the highschool social butterfly.