"Decay"

I think I'm decaying
Slowly, from the inside,
Because life is losing meaning,
And nothing ever seems right.
Everything I used to want
Has been reduced to subconscious needs.
I'm starting to just suck life out
And leave behind all excess energy.

But what can I do?
I'm only human, and this is far from curable
This infernal state of mind!
It's making me a mental case, and it's barely clinical.
You can't help me; you're only human,
Because all I want is to feel again.
To live my life and understand.
And I know that's impossible.