Independent

You used to mean the world to me
Stronger bond than family
Then I saw how I was wrong
Wonder why it took so long
Your face was always in my dreams
Until my life tore at the seams
I left you there without a doubt
There was nothing left to talk about
And I said:

I'm independent
I can survive without you
No more pretending
'Cause now I know what's false and what is true

I spent my days then filled with joy
Like a child with a brand new toy
Happy, cheerful, smiling bright
Sleeping soundly in the night
But was it just a fantasy?
Did my heart know what my eyes didn't see?
Maybe it wasn't your fault at all
My thoughts became my downfall
And I think:

I felt independent
Decided I could live without you by my side
Thought I'd ascended
To a heaven where you never have to hide

My happy life was over soon
Dwindled like a waning moon
Slowly the feelings came back again
Only now multiplied by ten
I still wanted love just not from you
No longer strong like the girl I once knew
Falling deep into this pool
Where a strange passion made the only rule
And I was:

Not so independent
I needed someone then and now
I had not intended
To fall in love again no way no how

After being with you for so long
I would never be as strong
Crushes came again so fast
Then I knew I wouldn't last
Though you were no longer in my life
You still caused me so much strife
Now my life had turned so blue
All of this because of you
And I say:

Independent
What I once was but never again will be
So co-dependant
On love and passion even you can see

Independent
Can't be, your memory it haunts me still
I'm not protected
From feelings that can hurt and harm and kill

Independent
I cannot see, where has my old life gone?
I'm so dependant
I can't believe my life has gone so wrong

Independent
I can't believe my fears are coming true
Now so dependant
And just think, it's all because of you