Him? Probably Not.
He fills my head,
He breaks my heart.
He makes me love,
I'm falling apart.
I'm supposed to be happy,
I see him everyday.
But my heart longs elsewhere,
I'm too far astray.
He's a role filler,
That's my guess.
He took someone's place,
I must confess.
I wish I could tell
him just what I feel.
I doubt that will
ever become what's real.
I know he longs
not for me.
This I feel,
This I see.
I just want someone
to hold me that close
It's all that I've
wanted the most.
Maybe it's not
"meant to be" me.
Maybe I'm just
too far off to see.
I hope he doesn't smile
at me tomorrow.
I could not bear such
"sweet sorrow."
His love for me,
my love for him.
None of it's true,
I just can't win.
I look at him,
I feel no more.
I don't think this
has happened before.
I feel my chest
as my heart still grows.
And whom do I wish for?
I still don't know.