blackness.
blackness is overwhelming me
pushing me down, down into inevitable depression
until i cry out in pain.

But no,
I'm not in black, I'm happy
Happy, whiteness surrounding me
I'm at peace and laughing
Laughing joyfully, flying into the air.

then it happens and i'm pulled
Bang, back down to earth
and it's here again, the feeling
i want to shout but i'm silenced, silence is all around me, everywhere
i'm frozen, stood still
staring in desperation.

but everyone carries on, talking, screeching
running around, ignoring me, ignoring my cries
no-one wants to listen, no-one stands still
no-one will ever hear me