No, the rest of this story isn't like this. Skip right along if you truly desire to.

The song is "Numb" by Linkin Park

-emphasis- /thoughts/ //song lyrics// ::::::::::

//I'm tired of being what you want me to be

Feeling so faithless

Lost under the surface//

"I don't want you around her!"

"Why not?!"

"Because I just don't!"

That's the way it always is, isn't it? You try to control me. At first it was just little things, like what kind of chicken I ate and such. I thought nothing of it, only believed that you cared for me and wanted me to have the best. Well, you do . . . you've just taken it to far.

//I don't know what you're expecting of me

Put under the pressure

Of walking in your shoes//

"What's wrong with my shirt?"

"It shows too much!"

Then it became worse.

I wasn't allowed to wear certain clothes or jewelry or makeup. Still I thought very little of it, since our styles usually agree, except there were a few arguments.

//Caught in the undertow

Just caught in the undertow

Every step that I take

Is another mistake to you

Caught in the undertow

Just caught in the undertow//

"Why won't you let me go where I want?"

"I don't want you to meet the wrong people!"

Then it was where I went, who I hung out with, which classes I took, when I watched T.V., what books I read. There was nothing that I could do with out your approval.

//I've

Become so numb

I can't feel you there

Become so tired

So much more aware

I'm becoming this

All I want to do

Is be more like me

And be less like you//

"Why can't I go? It's not -my- fault you have work!"

"You'll do something stupid!"

I know you were hurt before, but that gives you no excuse over ruling my life. And I'm sorry I can't be who you want me to be. I'm not to be pushed into things by anyone. I've always been a rebel. The only reason why I haven't left you yet is because of how much I love you.

//Can't you see that you're smothering me

Holding too tightly

Afraid to lose control

'Cause every thing that you thought I would be

Has fallen apart right in front of you//

I love you so much that I hate you. I can't stand being around you, always controlling me. But I can't stay away because it hurts to much. Living has become hell.

//Caught in the undertow

Just caught in the undertow

Every step that I take

Is another mistake to you

Caught in the undertow

Just caught in the undertow

And every second I waste

Is more than I can take//

I used to be popular, you know. But because of you I have no friends. No one to confide it, not even a goddamn diary.

This has to end.

//And I know

I may end up failing too

But I know

You were just like me

With someone disappointed in you//

I'm sorry, love. I promise I'll return. I left you a note on the table. Wait for me, I'll be back. Hopefully you'll have learned your lesson.

//I've

Become so numb

I can't feel you there

Become so tired

So much more aware

I'm becoming this

All I want to do

Is be more like me

And be less like you//

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This is what happens when I listen to music too much. :P