Afraid

I've never told anyone I love them before
Except for family
I'm afraid to tell you
Saying those words out loud
Makes it true
And it is true
But I don't want to admit it
Not even to myself
I'm afraid to lose you
I'm afraid to need you
I'm afraid you'll hurt me
I'm afraid you'll laugh
I'm afraid of everything
But no matter how afraid I am
I do love you
And you know that
But saying it makes it so real
And makes my fears so strong
So I can't say it
I can only know it

A/N: written to the phrase "I shouldn't tell anyone this, but."