No More
I sat in the room there just reading my book. My mom was fast asleep. I remember when Josh walked to the bathroom to take his shower. Now that I think of how I didn't give it a second thought. I do now, now that I look back on it; it was his 3rd that day.
I lay on that floor on my stomach looking up once in awhile at the Halloween Special on MTV. In my mind softly counting down thinking, "only 10 more days till my birthday."
I remember faintly as he sat beside me. At his first touch I shrugged it off, second my stomach dropped. When his hand trailed along my side I moved over. I could feel his body move closer to mine. I remember when I sat up to ask him what he was doing how he just pushed me down to the floor.
"Stop Josh, No!" I whimpered but then before I could do anything he was at my mothers' sleeping body with a knife in hand.
"Look," I shuddered as he said my name, "you stupid bitch you know you want me."
"So unless you want your mom here to die you'll shut up. Do you understand?" I nodded softly.
He slowly came over to me. His hands were callused and hard as the slid across my face. I just let him touch me afraid for her life. I slowly fell to the floor though his hands were pushing me roughly. He hovered there looking hollowly back at me.
I don't know what I did. All I remember were his lips coming at me hungrily. I lay they're not responding hoping that he will soon stop. I looked at my mother as he attacked my neck, licking, biting, anything and everything. I could feel the cold metal of the knife against my throat as I began to cry.
His soulless voice cruelly told me. "Shut up or I'll fucking slit your throat!" He then growled still very hushed. I sobbed silently as he lifted my shirt.
He hissed. "Don't make me kill her!" My sobs became less as I stared at my sleeping mother lying on the couch. She made the touching and grabbing easier to bear. I was willing to loose my 'virtue' so that he wouldn't touch her. I was willing to give my life for her she has been the only one there for me. I wouldn't let him hurt her. I heard his pants unzip and my heart stopped.