I Really Am

Oh, I am a star...
A huge burning ball of fire
But I'm billions of miles away
To you I'm a speck among millions
A spark gone astray
Wrapped in the black velvet hands
Of God...

And this pain that I'm feeling
Proves to me that I'm healing
And brings me that much closer
To knowing who I really am...

For I am the rain...
I must fall to become
And spread a clear flowing carpet of living
Sometimes I'm gray,
But always I'm giving
And together with you, I make
Rainbows...

And this love I desire
Lifts me ever higher
And brings me that much closer
To knowing who I really am...

For I am the autumn...
Sometimes I'm crisp and cold
But sacrificing all my leaves for you
But look how brilliant they are
Can't you see I believe in you?
Will winter cradle me in a white sparkling
Darkness?

And this faith that I'm grasping
Leaves me weak and gasping
And brings me that much closer
To knowing who I really am...

And I am the sunset
And I am the spark
Of everything I'll ever love
And clutch in the dark
Loving strangers
And choking in anger
I am the beauty your eyes
Cannot see...

And this joy that I'm needing
Could keep me from bleeding
And bring me that much closer
To knowing who I really am...

And this love I'm receiving
Makes me keep believing
And brings me that much closer
To knowing
That I
Really am