My new goal in life is to be loud
loud enough that my father will realize that I have a voice
and be able to hear me over his screaming.
during a fight he through all of the food on the counter at me to prove how much of a man he is.
[ Hit your kids men
everyone's doing it
its the only fashionable thing to do.]
And afterward make sure that you get down on your knees and beg for mercy form our vengeful hearts.
He'll never get it from me though.
My heart is cold,
never to be touched past the surface.
If your out their,
know that I hate you
and that wherever you are
whatever your doing
I hope you realize that you've made me this way
a by product of your lust
to a transparent rainbow
that was shot down by a loud voice
and hateful words.
My voice is loud,
and I feel like screaming to the world as to what a coward you are.
How you through fruit at me and raised your hand to strike and that I dared you to.
I dared you to hit me
make me bleed
turn me into the silken maid of silence.
Throw me against the ground and suck the love that once grew from my fingertips like ivy.
Feed the flame that's receding
like a stale piece of flesh stuck between your teeth.
I want to bleed tonight
to have you out of my system,
the same system that you helped to create
your violent veranda of taunts.
She's not enough.
I'm not enough.
So get rid of me
pinch me like a flower and pull away my petals.
"Is she good enough, is she not good enough."
"Do I love my daughter, do I love my daughter not."
daring to be bled tonight
and be rid of you.