"A Horrible"

Life.
I shudder at the thought.
Because look at mine.
Look at where it's gone.
And I watch
All of you, with your perfect lives,
And your pretty faces,
But I'll admit, you're not all so pretty.
Yet you'll still manage.
You get what you need.
No matter your problems,
They work for you in their own sick ways.

And I'm such a horrible.
This is how I drive them away.
I'm the worst kind.
On the bad end of everything.
Oh, I always wondered,
What the hell is wrong with me?
It's that I'm such a horrible,
I drive everyone away.

My mind stinks.
I fall behind.
My existance has made me sick.
Now it's not working,
And I'm last in everything.
Do you know why I'm stuck like this?
Do you know half of anything?
And if you do, could you please share?
I'd appreciate you telling me.
You figured yourself out so well,
Can you end my
Delusionary hell?

And I'm such a horrible.
This is how I drive them away.
I'm the worst kind.
On the bad end of everything.
Oh, I always wondered,
What the hell is wrong with me?
It's that I'm such a horrible,
I drive everyone away.

I drive them carefully away.
Without grace and drama.
I make them want to stay away.
Minus style and precision.
I'm such a...horrible.
Friends leave.
Everything leaves.

And I'm such a horrible.
This is how I drive them away.
I'm the worst kind.
On the bad end of everything.
Oh, I always wondered,
What the hell is wrong with me?
It's that I'm such a horrible,
I drive everyone away.

Everything leaves.