Upon the dawn of morning
I awake to see your face
Upon the dawn of mourning
I feel so out of place

As I dance with you
Across a liquid floor of gray
I am sad to say that in my mind
Everything has slipped away
Inside my being I am hiding in a corner
Carving these words into myself
As I feel I spin and reel
Inner reality devoid of my heart's wealth

As we light up the night
Our feet burn brightly across the floor
Inside I can't help but hide
From your blissfully sweet amour
I forget to see your loveliness
Like a walking flower in my arms
I forget to stroke you petals
Instead, in my mind, I take my hand and harm
Writing in the nectar of my soul
Upon the blackboard of my mind
The tenants of darkness that control
My thoughts, in shades of inky night

For you can never see the pain in me
Because I hide it in this place
And as we lean against a tree
As I softly stroke your face
Darkness remains painted upon my soul
And haunts me every night
If only you could see this pain in me
As I kiss you lovingly, as you hold me tight
Surely you would run away, never looking back
So I hold this bitter secret with hidden hands
And take you towards sacred lands
As our bodies become as one
And through the night I lose sight
Of all inside that is undone

Upon the dawn of morning
I awake to see your face
Upon the dawn of mourning
I feel so out of place

As I watch your soft skin in the light
I shudder and tremble and scream inside
As I remember what I did last night
To something so very beautiful
In my soul I lose control
And begin to write again
Upon the blackboard of my being
I record my heinous sin
Like every day that came before
I am left hurting more and more
Only now I have come to you

Traveling down the lonely road
My feelings do my being goad
I had to leave you can't you see?
Or else I would be killing me

You don't deserve a wretch like this
I can still feel you in my arms
You don't deserve such emptiness
Feeling all your forbidden charms
I do so I take all my pains away
I took my things and left you there
To bother me another day
With a note that said I care

Upon the dawn of morning
I awake to see your face
Upon the dawn of mourning
I feel so out of place

So now I walk alone
Cried that day, so long inside
Traveling with silent moans
Each time I remember you I want to hide
From myself.

Maybe one day I will return
Maybe one day my heart won't burn
With hatred for itself,
Until that I distant, brilliant day
I will in mist and fog stay
And secure my inner self away
From the light of Hope and Love
From divine guidance from above
Because all I have is a dove
With a broken wing inside.

05/01/2004