How do I Feel

As emotions sprung from my heart

All these feelings I felt, was all a lie

To deny

That I ever loved you

All of these times

I lied to myself saying

That I could learn to love

To escape from the pain, endured in the past

In doing so, I try to love you

But days, months, years, past

I knew, I was only trying to convince myself

To relive my feelings of love once again

But I now realize the truth

That it will never happen

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