I'd Like To Paint Myself

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I'd like to paint myself in gold
And smile the time away
Carefree flights of fancy
Wondrous as the day
Not caring that these words
Are overused and trite
I simply wouldn't care
Because I've bathed myself in light
I'd like to paint myself in gold

I'd like to paint myself in blue
Like mystic myriad pools
Depths almost unreachable
Hiding precious jewels
Where what you see is never quite
The same as what you get
In an ocean
You can lose your soul
-or worse--and yet
I'd like to paint myself in blue

I'd like to paint myself in red
And let it all come out
Fire, anger, passion
The right to scream and shout
And not supress my feelings
As emotions almost dead
I wish I had the courage
To paint myself in red

Instead I paint myself in black
And don't let colors in
I lock my heart up safe and sound
To protect in from the wind
That carries lies
And batters souls
And tears you up in two
When painted black
I'm not at risk
As gold or red or blue

I paint myself in black
To save me from the world
Not thinking what I might have missed
What glories have unfurled
I'd like to paint myself
In red or blue or gold
But I continue
To paint myself
In black
As my stories go untold

2/18/03