I AM

I am someone who is not afraid to die and only wants love
I wonder if there really is a reason for me in this world
I hear insecurities people hide through silence
I see the pain caused by those who promised not to hurt
I want everyone, including myself, to live happily
I am someone who is not afraid to die and only wants love

I pretend nothing is wrong within this life
I feel as though I could disappear and no one would notice
I touch the fires that burn in so many hearts
I worry I am a failure, regardless of my successes
I cry when my friends threaten suicide
I am someone who is not afraid to die and only wants love

I understand what is meant to be, will
I say I am indestructible, though so many have hurt me
I dream lies do not exist and everything is peaceful
I try to live to their expectations, even if going against my beliefs
I hope my friends love me for me, regardless of who I become
I am someone who is not afraid to die and only wants love

October, 2003