Should I

Should I kiss the Wall
and paint my life on it
Blood red - all in all
or just wait and sit

In between of two and a thousand ways
which were never mine to take
Should I be the one who always stays
cold like steel and twice as fake

Decissions made and time lost
Mind lost and insanity won
So my soul was the whole cost
for an uncertainty gone

Should I be the puppet on a string
and you all be my master
Or am I the spell-caster
which makes you all scream and sing

It doesn't matter for it's all untrue
With every word I say and all I do
The illusion gains one color more
but life always settles its score

Should I turn it all to dust
Or has it ever been more than this
No matter if fair or unjust
for the outcome is always bliss