yes, i have lain in bed awake thinking of you,
not that that's bad,
i love it.
i love you.
ihave meditated on ever inch of You that I've seen
not your knees,
are they knobbly? no.
they're yours, they must be perfect.
iremember how You feel
under my hands, lips, legs.
how i feel under You,
how i love you.
i could recognize you anywhere.
i saw you in a mask once, twice.
i knew it was you.
You.
it's always been you,
will always be You.
fac mihi amorem
every night until we die.
ilove You,
always and forever.
always.

april, 2004.