Regretting the past

I long for love in my life,

      had that once.

Why did I let it go,

            was it so hard to forgive,

                        the unforgivable?

Looking for love in the wrong places,

            I am so stupid

               love is what I had.

What have I done to myself?

                        Told myself I hate you,

for what you did.

  Just maybe, I only hate myself.

                                    Look, Listen, my heart has broken,  

You were not perfect, you had your faults.

            So did I, but understand.

     Your words, burned me, scared me!

                    I could not forget,

                          I have tried


        continue to echo through my dreams

Tormenting this poor soul,

          I don't look for pity, just understanding.

   you were the best part of my life,

              you in my arms, your smile.

BUT, never has another caused me such pain.