I love you,
But I don't want to,
As I'll only get hurt,
Whether you mean to or not,
So, I'm sorry.
But I still love you.

You haunt my dreams,
My thoughts and life,
You are all I want,
And what I live for,
I've never felt love,
I don't know what this is,
But it feels so strong,
So maybe it is?

I still love the way you do things,
The way you look at me,
Sometimes I see you stare,
Do you still love me?
I don't think you do,
I think it was an illusion,
So do I love you?

I've never felt like this,
I never thought I could,
But every moment you're not here,
I'm ripped up inside.
My tears fall with a gentle grace,
Only to be wiped away,
By my own hand.

I'll tell you I'm okay,
But I really need your help,
So right now I scream.
Inside.silently.
But I'll scream at you,
I'll hit the walls,
I'll make myself bleed.
For you.

This is love?
This isn't what I wanted.
Real love doesn't hurt,
Real love feels nice,
Real love doesn't make you cry!
Real love doesn't leave you battered,
Hurt and bleeding by your self!
This isn't real love.

But, I still love you.
I don't want to,
As I'll only get hurt,
Whether you mean to or not,
But, I'm not sorry,
I still love you.

By Siobhan
Date: 3/June/2004