No Longer Exists

Well, Well, Well
Let me start out and say
I have a serious problem today
No one will understand
Or come close enough to slightly comprehend
Only if this situation could come to an end
Disturbingly possessively in love with you (you don't feel the same)
So sexually appetizing
Personally desirable
Completely distorting my mind
I'm so out of focus
Stressing the fuck out
No matter what I say to you
Continuously feel I'm a circus act
The odd looks
So common and frequent
Yet so unnecessary
Look at the fuckin freak show bitch!
So much damn bullshit!
Kill me so sorry and pathetic!
I can't take it anymore!

I'm so in love with you
Even though I'd rather see you dead
Your all over and about in my mind
Erase the beautiful person
Relieve me from who I want
Give me all that is not
Can't want you if you no longer exist!

Death can be my bounty hunter
Make the pain a bit softer
A day older
End the meaningless crying
Begin the medicating dying
I wish I could be lying
But my recovery starts
Then finishes
When you're gone!

I'm so in love with you
Even though I'd rather see you dead
Your all over and about in my mind
Erase the beautiful person
Relieve me from who I want
Give me all that is not
Can't want you if you no longer exist!

Don't exist!
Go away!
Some shape
Some form
Death or missing forever
As long as it's never
Never see you again
Never!

I'm so in love with you
Even though I'd rather see you dead
Your all over and about in my mind
Erase the beautiful person
Relieve me from who I want
Give me all that is not
Can't want you if you no longer exist!