So Many Questions

You don't know and never will
The pain that's resulted from this feeling
Your ignorance is my bliss right now
For you knowing would be catastrophic

My life was flipped upside down
The hell of youth crossed over to this new year
I felt free and rid of the torment
When now it's increased so much I can't take it

Why must my optimism have reason to hide
And why do I look in your eyes and see who I am
How can you be so perfect for me that daily
I come crawling to you for the answers

Each day I see you my heart is beguiled
Holding back affection, though I want to give in
My life is a snow globe and you are a child
Not knowing the chaos you've inflicted within

Unable to quell my desire for you
I sit alone and watch some TV
Hoping to get you out of my mind
But it's no use for you're there wherever I go

Why must my optimism have reason to hide
And why do I look in your eyes and see who I am
How can you be so perfect for me that daily
I come crawling to you for the answers

Why must I mask my emotion and pain
How much longer must I restrain
From telling you and making you understand
Who I am