The Best I've Ever Been

Dreading the day you'll leave me here
Knowing by then I'll have to quell all my overwhelming fears
And tell you how I really feel
Being well aware that these wounds will not easily heal

Never having succeeded and now being so close
Having to let you go just breaks my fragile heart
Loving you is not at all a path I chose
More of curiously stumbled upon; I soon fell apart

Then with your delicate and caring hands you put the missing pieces back
Added your own twist and made me a different person altogether
But this sudden, noticeable change wasn't bad, it was for the better
And it remains to this day the best I've ever been

So aware of myself right now, I fear
When you leave will I come crumbling down into a pile right here
But when you go I'll miss you
Just now I'm realizing the fact that I'll never get to kiss you

I'll try to restrain my tears but I can't guarantee
Anything now that I'm shattered like fallen glass
I just pray that you'll hold me for the sake of me
That way my raining tears won't all be sad

When we said those goodbyes, the embraces made my heart and soul quiver
Just being close to you made me feel like I was something more than I was
I should've taken the chance when I had it, but now there's no hope for us
And I remain to this day spiteful

Towards myself for my apathy at first
Not realizing the world of difference you made
How could I be so terribly blind
That I didn't even see you until you were pointed out by fate

This farewell has eroded my rained-on heart though it hasn't even happened
But it's hurtling towards me like a bullet about to strike me dead
Something in your smile has changed what goes on inside my head
And I remain to this day thankful

Part of me prays I never see you again
For another hello would mean another goodbye
The sheer thought of two endings makes me want to cry
And I remain to this day saddened

I either lie awake or I lazily snooze
When I'm up I think about you, when I sleep I dream about you
Never until now has it occurred to me
All the dreams I never lived because my fears caused me to be

Petrified at the thought of what you could perhaps say
I would tell you but that's improbable, wouldn't work
Even if I were to tell you now, it'd still be too late
My wounds are too deep; they will never cease to hurt

You are the silver moon, shining in brilliance
I am the ocean, the tides, ever changing
But this change is good, caused by your magnificence
My emotions, the waves, are madly raging

Today I feel the best I ever have
I'm so myself I cannot comprehend
How can I feel this way and still be
Me

It's because of you I am who I am today
With your eyes and your smile you made me crazy
For you; I am grateful and now I pray
That we can be together some day

I'm so aware of myself, I feel like this is who I am (that's because it is)
No other guy can do just what you did for me (made me open my eyes)
I'm so aware of my heart and what it's telling me to do (talk to you right
now)
No other feeling I've ever had can top this it seems

Dreading the day you'll leave me here
Knowing by then I'll have to quell all my overwhelming fears
And tell you how I really feel
Being well aware that these wounds will not easily heal

Never having succeeded and now being so close
Having to let you go just breaks my fragile heart
Loving you is not at all a path I chose
More of curiously stumbled upon; I soon fell apart

When we said those goodbyes, the embraces made my heart and soul quiver
Just being close to you made me feel like I was something more than I was
I should've taken the chance when I had it, but now there's no hope for us
And I remain to this day spiteful

This farewell has eroded my rained-on heart though it hasn't even happened
But it's hurtling towards me like a bullet about to strike me dead
Something in your smile has changed what goes on inside my head
And I remain to this day thankful

When with your delicate and caring hands you put the missing pieces back
Added your own twist and made me a different person altogether
But this sudden, noticeable change wasn't bad, it was for the better
And it remains to this day the best I've ever been

Because of you I'm the best I've ever been
The best I've ever been