Still Part Her

This redundant voice inside is screaming at me
I'm not the clumsy, ditzy girl I used to be
And as I'm reminded of my former self
I find my lives colliding, part heaven and part hell

Dreams drift over the wavering realms of pain
Filling me with an uncanny sense of dread
Without you here, though I'm not forced, I feign
All the thoughts circling aimlessly in my head

The merciless talons of my pain, I fight
They echo in my fearful saunter
Haunt my helpless soul through day and night
Making me crazy and making me falter

Almost everyone is treating me as if I'm still
The person they've accepted, though I'm still unsure
If she ever really existed, and will I ever know
But mostly I'm terrified cold that I'm still part her