rain falls as i lie here crying.
life's a bitch.
of all the people in the world
why him? why my family? why my brother?
i don't wanna lose him.
i don't wanna go through the pain all over again.
i hate my life.
i hate God!
why now? why him?
not again. not the sadness.
not the arguing. not the pain.
i can't go through it again.
i wanna disappear.
i wanna block everything out.
i wanna escape.
why me?...