It's only a month in
and I'm already crying
I know it's not your fault
I know I'm insecure
I can't help it
I know I'm spoiled
it's all my fault
but I cant do this
I can't deal with you not calling
and not wanting to see me
more than them
and blowing me off for your friends
and telling your friends you're talking to your mom
I just cant
I'm so used to being loved
to being important
to some one who doesn't just say he misses me
some one who actually makes an attempt to see me
I can't handle this
I know it's not your fault
I'm just too fucked up
too needy
too imperfect
I just can't do this