i'm falling, falling deeper into this pit of despair.
another loved one has been ripped from me, taken to a 'better place'.
better for them, but not those they have left behind or those who loved them
god is slowly and painfully unraveling my life and tearing apart my family.
he took away my life in pennsylvannia and sent me here.
i was taken from my family there and thousands of miles were put between us.
now slswly he is taking my alaskan family away. first granny, then noodle,
now grandad is gone. Does god delight in hurting me or is he just ignoring me?
whatever he is doing, it is casting me deeper and deeper into this blackhole called sorrow.
my life has taken a permanent turn for the worse.

samanmtha
m.
thomas