So Paranoid,
"They're out to get me"
Feeling used.
Manipulated.
Led down the garden path.
Disgusted with them all.
By now life seems depressing,
And nothing seems to help.
So Jealous,
"I wish I was more their type"
"More normal"
I'm just Greedy.
Self-indulgent.
Revisiting old memories only makes it worse.
I try to find meaning behind it all.
Behind all the lies,
The decisions.
I'm living in the past.
One thing alone sustains me.
Deception.
I'm a lie to the world,
To myself.
I don't know who I am.
All I know:
I live,
I breathe,
I cry,
I play pretend.
"But why?" I ask myself.
Even I can't say.
I lack a truth,
A truth inside,
Hidden in a labyrinth.
So I live behind a mask of smiles,
Artificial joy.
So no one else can see how I'm suffering so.
I just want to understand.
I just want to know the truth I'm hiding from within.
I'm looking,
Searching,
And no one can help me find it.
"They're out to get me"
Feeling used.
Manipulated.
Led down the garden path.
Disgusted with them all.
By now life seems depressing,
And nothing seems to help.
So Jealous,
"I wish I was more their type"
"More normal"
I'm just Greedy.
Self-indulgent.
Revisiting old memories only makes it worse.
I try to find meaning behind it all.
Behind all the lies,
The decisions.
I'm living in the past.
One thing alone sustains me.
Deception.
I'm a lie to the world,
To myself.
I don't know who I am.
All I know:
I live,
I breathe,
I cry,
I play pretend.
"But why?" I ask myself.
Even I can't say.
I lack a truth,
A truth inside,
Hidden in a labyrinth.
So I live behind a mask of smiles,
Artificial joy.
So no one else can see how I'm suffering so.
I just want to understand.
I just want to know the truth I'm hiding from within.
I'm looking,
Searching,
And no one can help me find it.