Uninvited
I feel unwanted,
out of the loop
hanging on a thread.
I am lost
confused
but I can't get depressed
That demon
I must keep down
I fear
I am losing my friends.
I might be wrong,
but it feels that way.
What should I expect
I am always the one
that is not invited
to life
I am dull,
there is nothing to talk about
with me
just garbage.
I am average,
I expect great things
but they aren't going to happen from me.
I don't have that spark.
I stand on the
edge,
staring into the darkness.
The voices howling,
not letting me rest,
not letting me stay happy.
It is my own damn fault.
If I univited,
unwanted,
unloved.
I am a sad girl,
unassertive,
unoutgoing.
Standing,
watching
the world pass
me by.