Cloud Nine

Engraving deep wounds throughout my chest
Lay on my bed soaked in a puddle of (puddle of) my own blood
Each cut, sharp, piercing the skin with pain that never felt so right
Tonight is the last night (last night)
My life is finally over... (finished)
Die smiling as overwhelming blood loss does the trick
At dawn everyone will wake up to see
All will then smile with me
Cheer for me, this time I did right (right)
An experience to die for...

Pray cancer will one day soon end this misery!
Fuck the random street whores for the beauty of H.I.V!
Hope for that car to run me down in the process!
Five bottles of ammonia for lunch!
Try to swim and just drown!
A bullet in much needed school shooting!
Slit my wrist and die by the end of the day! (bleed)
Anyway...
Any day...
Just die now! (cloud nine)
Now!
We all know it is best for you, me, and us all (cloud nine)

With each passing night the wish remains the same
Ongoing pain continues (devastatingly)
Every attempt to stop leads to disaster
Is it worth living when you live like this?
Confused, and continue to wonder
Why am I not dead by now?

Bleed!
Close my eyes
With hope they will never open again
Everyday has to begin with something new
A disease known as my life
Just fuck it away!
You know I'm not worth living
Stop with all the lies!
I don't want to try!
Not worth it!
Fuck this shit away!

Pray cancer will one day soon end this misery!
Fuck the random street whores for the beauty of H.I.V!
Hope for that car to run me down in the process!
Five bottles of ammonia for lunch!
Try to swim and just drown!
A bullet in much needed school shooting!
Slit my wrist and die by the end of the day! (bleed)
Anyway...
Any day...
Just die now! (cloud nine)
Now!
We all know it is best for you, me, and us all (cloud nine)
The words associated with my name should be and always remain...
Rest in peace and thank you...