I Hope You're Proud

I don't want
To fail, but I
Think I might, I
Think of this night after night

I try my hardest
To succeed and please,
But don't you realise how
Much pressure that feeds

I read and read
Til I'm blue in the
Face, just to see
Your smiling face

I try so hard
To do so good,
But I realise now
I'm not that good

Sometimes you encourage
Other times you don't care,
Even though you see me breaking
And ripping out my hair.

All this is for you
I hope you're proud,
Even though I'm dead
Right now, inside and out

A/N. Plz R&R. means a lot.