Chapter 6: And I'll give you a call

            Kim left and I was still lying on my bed at a lost of what to do.  I mean I wanted to call him but something in me told me that everything would shatter if I called...  Though what if everything did go fine and I was worrying for nothing? Slowly I was getting the nerve to call him…  To call Andy and see once and for all if this was something more then just one sided…  Slowly I picked up the phone and dialed the number…

            "Hello?" came a woman's voice

            "Um… hello is um…  Andy home?"  I asked my heart racing faster as there as a long pause as phones changed hands.

            "Hey…"  Came his voice over the phone…

            "Hey…"  God Ty how much more can you say?

            "Um who is this?"  Andy asked

            "This is Ty… you left your number in my locker right?"  I finally though that maybe someone planted the number and this only made me want to faint…

            "Oh yeah I did! I'm glad you called."  Andy said happily

            What do I say now do I just come right out and ask him about it all?  I was just to nervous to talk…

            "Ty I want to talk about what happened today…"  He's tone went low and now I silently panicked…

            "Yeah?"  I said my voice shaking

            "I…I just want you to…know that…  I didn't mean anything by it and I'm sorry if I lead you on in any way…"  Came the words I knew in my heart were coming and it still hurt more then I could ever have thought…  I just wanted to die right now….

            "Yeah…I know…" I murmured as I chocked back tears

            " I still want to be your friend though…"  Andy offered trying to soften his blow

            " Well I'll talk to you later…"  I whispered trying not to cry

            "Okay…"  Andy whispered back

            "Bye…"  I whispered and hung up…

            How could I have been that dumb?  I knew that I could never have him and yet I tried to think that maybe for a moment there was hope for me…  Man, I was so wrong…  This pain I now felt was like no other it hurt me right down to my very core…  I wanted to cry and yet I couldn't even will myself to…

            "So how did it go?"  Sam whispered

            "How do you think it went?"  I whispered darkly

            I stood up and walked past Sam to walk out…I needed to be alone…  I needed to go for a walk to try to clear my mind…  I put my shoes on, slipped my coat on, and walked out in the blustery October day.  I fought to walk as the wind fought to keep me from going any farther and brought in its windy gusts leaves that stung any skin that hadn't be covered.

            I knew Andy didn't like me the same way and yet I still fooled myself into thinking that there was a chance for me.  I felt to stupid and weak at this news I had wanted to be with him more then anything…  I wanted to feel the warmth of his touch and to feel his warm body as he held me to him….

            **  "I'm sorry Ty I didn't mean what I said!"  Andy whispered soft in my ear

            "I'm so glad…." I whispered softly **

                        What brought me out of my thoughts this time was that I heard someone running behind me and just as I turned around to see I felt Andy's arms around me and pull me close…  I even felt his lips on mine…  They were even softer then I could ever have imagined.  Then like something out of my fantasy world those words came…

            " I'm so sorry Ty…I didn't mean what I said!"  Andy said softly kissing me…

            My head was swing this wasn't my dream world that I had lived in for the past three years…  No, he was really holding me and kissing me… whispering on how sorry he was and kissing me even more…

            "I'm sorry! When you feel on me I didn't want to let you go because you were in my arms.  I've loved you for awhile now and…"  His whispered as he kissed my neck 

            I was so lost in the moment that I couldn't even speak all I could do was slowly bring my arms up around him…

            "I broke up with Natalie because I finally realized the only way I can be happy is with you… but I still scared of what's going to happen…" Andy whispered

            "I won't be your secret lover…  I won't let myself sit in the shadows… and if that means turning you away until you can find yourself then I well…  Even though it will kill me to do that…"  I whispered as the tears fell down my face

            "Then you won't be!  I want you too much to let you go now!  I want to hold you and kiss your pain away…"  He whispered…

            "Thank you…"  I whispered as I pulled him close as I kissed him on the lips

            Our lips meet in a deep kiss…  This was nothing like I had ever even dreamed…  His kiss was so sweat even now, as he nipped at my lip asking to enter.  I parted my lips let his tongue into my mouth.  I grabbed hold of him to keep from falling… slowly I felt his hand push up under my shirt…  My head swam as I too slipped my tongue in his mouth.  I was just so happy that nothing could break this happiness…